{"id":5081,"date":"2022-04-03T22:06:49","date_gmt":"2022-04-04T05:06:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.heatherbarton.com\/?p=5081"},"modified":"2025-11-01T22:08:36","modified_gmt":"2025-11-02T05:08:36","slug":"do-i-stay-or-do-i-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.heatherbarton.com\/?p=5081","title":{"rendered":"Do I stay or do I go?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I was contemplating pulling the blog and dropping the site&#8230;. I went so far as to print to a saved file the posts I felt were good, or archived my life in a way I wanted to keep.  But with THIS many posts, I ran out of steam before that little project was done!  Then, I&#8217;ll be honest, I got lazy and just kept the blog up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>News on the dating front for me is I joined a regular dating site (and no, I didn&#8217;t close the sex site&#8230;. why, when I&#8217;m still getting emails lol).   I joined because I&#8217;m hoping to meet a better class of FWB men and also because as I age further from my sexual peak it takes more than just the flashbang sex I&#8217;ve enjoyed in the past.   I&#8217;ll never find the all around perfection of Sex God as a BF\/FWB&#8230; but perhaps I could get closer than the NSA out there on a different site.  So I did a bit of research and choose Bumble and Hinge, and even then only set up Bumble.   I had to pay for a month of Premium to just sort out parameters in a way I wanted and it took me over a week to even figure out what I was doing!   After all, with my left\/right dyslexia I may have swiped the wrong way on the occasional profile&#8230;fingers slip!  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>After finally sorting out Bumble, I got into a bit of a rhythm.   Instead of scrolling through all the guy profiles, swiping yes or no on them (unless I&#8217;m really bored) I just scroll through the guys who&#8217;ve said yes on me.  BUT&#8230; once I&#8217;ve said yes to them, we&#8217;ve matched and it&#8217;s up to me to make the first contact.  Not that I&#8217;m shy&#8230; more like, I&#8217;d rather not talk to too many at once.  So I sent a few opening chats out and had 2 conversations that seem to go nowhere and 1 we couldn&#8217;t seem to find a time to set up a meet.  And ONE who was so aggressively obsessed with getting an assurance from me that we WOULD date and not waste his time at a meet and then blow him off.  It was the most interesting example of a self-fulfilling prophecy&#8230; I only wish I could have screen shot the conversation to show.    But I do have my first meet in person on Tuesday&#8230;. we&#8217;ll see how that plans out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Then&#8230; I was watching the new Netflix show The Principals of Pleasure and in episode 2 they talk about how men are visual (which we all knew) and women are into the story.  (Completely makes sense, I just never realized it was about the story when I used my imagination to masturbate.  Although that explains why I&#8217;d rather read cartoon porn stories than watch a porn film.)   But then they said that auditory porn is the closest you can get to this and all I could visualize was listening to a sexy male Scottish accent reading erotica and I was quickly googling apps that do that!   I&#8217;ve downloaded DipseaStories and plan on trying it out tonight&#8230;. if I can find a pair of headphones!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Note on the Principals of Pleasure episode 1.  I got really lucky.  Perhaps because my mom was in the medical field, she made sure I knew all about the female body&#8230;. or perhaps because as kids we found dad&#8217;s stash of Playboy&#8217;s&#8230; or perhaps because we did get some sort of sex education in 5th grade (and no I don&#8217;t remember anything about it lol) or perhaps because my mom knew I&#8217;d been masturbating since I was 4 and NEVER said anything good or bad about it or that she knew&#8230; or perhaps it&#8217;s just I&#8217;m enough of a narcissist to NEVER give up what gives me pleasure&#8230;. but I think I turned out incredibly well rounded sexually. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I was contemplating pulling the blog and dropping the site&#8230;. I went so far as to print to a saved file the posts I felt were good, or archived my life in a way I wanted to keep. 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