Sad but true, sometimes shit just happens.\u00a0 I try not to take it personally (and fail most of the time) \u00a0but lately when shit happens I feel as if fate is trying to tell me something.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Right now it seems to be telling me to have less contact with everyone or have less someones.\u00a0\u00a0 Because,\u00a0EO, I lost the address to contact you.\u00a0\u00a0 And the wonderfully fun women I met in Orlando…?…\u00a0 they must be super busy because they don’t email back or indicate they’re reading the blog by commenting.<\/p>\n
One thing about me… I know deep inside I’m a rather needy person.\u00a0 I always have been.\u00a0 So early on I learned NOT to force myself on another person just because I wanted their human contact.\u00a0 Not everyone finds me as fascinating as I find me.\u00a0 (Oh, stop laughing.\u00a0 If you’re reading the blog, then you find me interesting and so the previous sentence obviously doesn’t apply to YOU.\u00a0 Those who don’t find me interesting\u00a0aren’t reading the blog so I can’t really hurt their feelings, now can I?)<\/p>\n
Anyway… back to whining<\/span> the point.\u00a0 Because of my habit\u00a0NOT to Over-Inflict myself on others I don’t usually initiate contact more than twice in\u00a0a row with no response.\u00a0 I find that no matter how much they enjoy your company in any event, day or evening… it’s not always enough to keep them wanting to continue in your company enough to make the effort.\u00a0<\/p>\n People are busy.\u00a0 Everyone has their own lives.\u00a0 I understand that.\u00a0 But I’ve got my insecurities telling me I’m nagging a stranger or new friend to be my friend and my pride telling me to stop begging other’s when its obvious they don’t want the contact.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n Same thing happens with my writing and the blog.\u00a0 Many people asked to read Cat.\u00a0 So I emailed her off to them.\u00a0\u00a0Over 10 people got her and only 4 people ever said anything to me about whether they like it or not.\u00a0 Only 3 have ever finished her.\u00a0 Again, I know people are busy but frankly don’t ask for my book and then not read it.<\/p>\n So\u00a0with summer gone we all gather less.\u00a0 We buckle down into our lives and contact when we can.\u00a0 And I’m down a friend unless I can miraculously find that contact address.\u00a0 As if it wasn’t bad enough I no longer get to see Gina once a week, or Eithne every day.<\/p>\n Like I said,\u00a0sometimes… shit happens.\u00a0\u00a0And it sucks.\u00a0 It’s why we call it shit.<\/p>\n UPDATE – Today I found out that Mike at the Post Office is being transferred due to budget costs.\u00a0\u00a0 Another fun and weekly contact “poof”ing away.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Sad but true, sometimes shit just happens.\u00a0 I try not to take it personally (and fail most of the time) \u00a0but lately when shit happens I feel as if fate is trying to tell me something.\u00a0 Right now it seems … Continue reading