It has been a really good year for me.\u00a0 I won’t go into ALL the details… read the past posts!\u00a0 Really, people… EFFORT.<\/p>\n
That’s what the year has been with me and my kids.\u00a0 Me trying to pound the philosophy of EFFORT and them, and them staring back blankly.\u00a0 Although small\/huge success with my oldest, who (FINALLY) uttered the words, “Well, it’s fixable, Mom.” to me when we were discussing what he managed NOT to get done on the list of Please Do School\/Chores\/Anything Instead of Video Games.\u00a0\u00a0 That phrase is the key to him self-managing his high anxiety and depression (and I’ve been trying to get him to adopt\/believe in it for years).\u00a0 If he keeps that in the forefront and follows up with action, I can stop worrying he won’t manage alone as an adult.<\/p>\n
Sex God is mostly spending his time building a house in Palm Springs.\u00a0 It’s a great job and he’s loving construction.\u00a0 I think he’s finally found an industry that he can enjoy that will PAY him! lol\u00a0\u00a0 It’s kind of like me discovering retail.\u00a0 I had the usual thought of “If I won the lottery I’d have $ to make my worries go away.”\u00a0 Then I realized… I’d not want to give up my Target job nor could I give up being my mother’s much needed personal secretary at Geddes.\u00a0 I giggled at the knowledge that all that money would do would pay off the bills and maybe buy a car or house but wouldn’t really change my life much.\u00a0 It might change my Ex’s as he’d not have to pay child support hahahaha!<\/p>\n
With Sex God gone you’d think I’d have more time for my other lovers.\u00a0 Soooo not so, so busy.\u00a0 I did find time to meet a new Cub but only because he was cute, in shape, Poly and Bi.\u00a0 That is a rare combo in a younger man and I was intrigued.\u00a0 The first meet went pretty well.\u00a0 He showed up dressed to the nines in a suit!\u00a0 He had an adorable smile.\u00a0 He found me amazing (as he should, I am the Cougar fantasy…well, if you take away the Sugar Mama part heehee).\u00a0\u00a0 But I noticed and he admitted when I told him about my oldest being an Appy kid, that he was Aspergers.\u00a0 When he was engaged with me, he was fully engaged and smiled his adorable smile showering me with compliments.\u00a0 But when he would half engage his face would change to what a normal person would interpret as completely un-engaged.\u00a0 Everybody half engages in conversation all the time, but we mask it with the “A huh’s” and nods, smiles and food toying, its a natural part of conversation we’ve learned that usually goes over the heads of Asperger’s people.\u00a0\u00a0 This man would look away or look at you with a deadpan face.\u00a0 I found myself seriously contemplating if I needed another man like this in my life (my Ex was a little like this, my son’s are a little like this).\u00a0 But I gave him a play date just in case.<\/p>\n
That play date was last week.\u00a0 He did a lot of right things and a lot of wrong things.<\/p>\n
Right thing…\u00a0 he suggested we meet at his favorite bar instead of just “Hey, come over and we’ll fuck at my place”… in other words he chose to try and date me not JUST fuck me.\u00a0 That is a big plus in my book as I prefer FWB not NSA and when a lover tries for that, it preferences him for me (with the exception of Ultimate Man cuz… hot-bodied, gorgeous, former underwear models get a pass on that!).<\/p>\n
Wrong thing… he picked a bar on the corner of Hollywood and Vine (close to him I get but….) with NO parking… dude… if you pick ANY place on a date and you’re not picking her up… YOU BETTER PICK A PLACE WITH PARKING… this it date etiquette 101 here.<\/p>\n
Right thing…. perfect gentleman at the bar, helped me find street parking to his apartment, offered drink when we got there (water is fine, says I).<\/p>\n
Wrong thing… found parking on the hill, wound down stairs, uneven street paving and then cobblestones in poorly lit areas in MY 3” HEEL BOOTS and did not hold my hand to help.\u00a0 He’s over 6 feet tall and didn’t really slow his gait to adjust to my slow careful (sure… call it sexy sauntering but I was in fear of a twisted ankle fall here!) pace.<\/p>\n
Right thing… started with lots of clothes on kissing…\u00a0 slowly disrobed me then I demanded he disrobe himself… he spent a lot of time on cunnilingus.<\/p>\n
Wrong thing… he spent A LOT of time on cunnilingus!!!\u00a0 If you’ve read past blogs you know this is pretty wasted on me.\u00a0 My clit is\u00a0 a mischievous bitch who moves and hides and does this “Oo that is great…. nope nothing…. ooo nice… aaaand it’s gone” thing.\u00a0\u00a0 Hell, even I sometimes have trouble masturbating!\u00a0 And what fixes my clit issues… a nice cock in my pussy so she cannot hide away!<\/p>\n
Right thing…\u00a0 he was properly appreciative when I went down on him, which I love (both the down and the appreciation) and he was even a little macho aggressive which is nice to see in a usually reserved Appy person.<\/p>\n
Sad thing…\u00a0 he was not large in size… which isn’t always the end of the sex play for me… I’m adjustable!\u00a0 For the right personality.\u00a0 But when he put the condom on….\u00a0 that lovely erection just wilted.\u00a0 And I’d worked to get it hard!<\/p>\n
Crazy thing…. so after more foreplay to try again (and failing) and him wanting to get me off orally and me saying “I had some small orgasm, let’s just take care of you (so I can go home) he tells me of his philosophy not to ejaculate as it represents his life force.<\/p>\n
AAAnnnnnd I’m out!<\/p>\n
I’ve heard this bullshit before.\u00a0 Particularly from followers of Tantric Sex and the overly artistic (this man is a young Producer\/Director of Indy films and an avid listener of PBS).\u00a0 And I’ve also listened to the medical studies which show it’s healthier to ejaculate than hold back.\u00a0 You’ve got to work your system, don’t let things build up… and the more sex you have the more sex you want.\u00a0 I KNOW what is truth… I experience it!\u00a0 The more sex you have the hornier you get… the more a man cums the more he CAN cum.\u00a0 If your orgasms are not Spectacular enough for you that you have to hold back FOREVER to get that one EXPLOSIVE one.. then don’t waste your time on me.<\/p>\n
With a good cock in I can have orgasm after orgasm after orgasm.\u00a0 Want to make it spectacular?\u00a0 Bring in a toy, bring in lots of public PDA foreplay, bring in more than one person… hell, lets do it ALL!\u00a0 Want spectacular…. let me suck you till you cum… then get you hard again so you can cum all\u00a0 inside me!<\/p>\n
There is a reason I call it Happy Juice and a lover who hoards it to “protect his artistic life force”\u00a0 well, that’s not a man I’m going to have the right things in common with, even with the shared Poly\/Bi philosophy.\u00a0\u00a0 Hell, Tongue God and I were very sexually compatible and he was\/is a Tea Party Republican!!!<\/p>\n
December, the season of giving… started off without a bang!<\/p>\n
Luckily I called Bear and a Christmas miracle happened… we were free on the same day at the same hour.\u00a0 I scampered over there and got perfectly fucked with his thickly perfect cock.\u00a0\u00a0 He gave me the usual mixed signals of NSA\/FWB but as usual, I’m ok with it.\u00a0 After we both shared memes we loved about Bernie Sanders, I challenged him to FB me and he declined.. then later made an odd lead in statement of how a previous lover wanted to be his gf but he’s not the right man for her… then said, “Actually, better to say she’s not the girlfriend I want.”\u00a0 My instinct screamed to say, “Really, and who IS the girlfriend you want.” wanting him to say me but not wanting to hear him say not me.<\/p>\n
After all that amusement my Sex God comes back from Palm Springs for a day and stops off at the sex toy shop.\u00a0\u00a0 Mmmmmmm yumminess!<\/p>\n
And I realize my holiday greeting should be<\/p>\n
“Fun times and good orgasms for ALL, and to ALL a GOOD night!”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It has been a really good year for me.\u00a0 I won’t go into ALL the details… read the past posts!\u00a0 Really, people… EFFORT. That’s what the year has been with me and my kids.\u00a0 Me trying to pound the philosophy … Continue reading