Last month I went to my 30 year high school reunion. I was supposed to go to the cocktail party before it, even paid for it, but Sex God was late to come over and watch my kids while I popped out.. and so I just spent the night with him instead. (He needed it… work has been treating him like shit)
Because of that I probably missed the one person I wanted to see. lol.. my best friend from middle school (or Junior High as we called it back then). We live in cities right next to each other, but never manage to connect! I am undaunted!
Anyway… (high school colors of blue.. represented in toenails, hee hee)
So Sex God bailed on me for the Reunion… whole other story. But it taught me one thing. The kids are old enough to be left alone for a couple of hours without burning the house down. lol.. After all , all they did was play video games! Either way, I wasn’t going to miss my 30 year reunion just because my babysitter changed his mind about seeing me. So I left the little buggers home alone together for the first time and went. (turns out there ISN’T a law on this 🙂 ) And they were fine.
I get there right on time to Castaways in Burbank and park at the shuttle stop. And right off see my first kiss. He’s also a FB friend so while I greet him with a hug.. he knows more about ME than most of my high school friends, just from having access to the blog! lol. Plus he’s happily married so after a friendly hug & quick conversation on the shuttle we part ways.
Standing in line for an incredibly overpriced drink I realize the futility of recognizing anyone. lol. See I wasn’t popular in high school. I wasn’t a member of any clubs or groups in high school. I wasn’t social in high school. I didn’t date at all. (I know.. the pendulum swung alot just before I graduated and then completely once in college. lol) The few people who I knew were barely acquaintences.
On the plus side.. I don’t have a problem meeting strangers. But on the negative side a lot of people were engaged in conversations of “wow.. remember when we did this!” And I didn’t want to intrude. Although early on in a conversation with a woman we both realized we were single, happy to be that way and not really monogamous about it AND Cougars. lol. Although we did have different types of Cubs we enjoyed. Which is a GOOD thing. hee hee hee.
So we bonded a bit and I had someone to stand and talk to and sit with at dinner. Which was very nice up until I realized she WAS a popular girl in high school. So there was a lot of people who she was socializing with. And I felt I was intruding a bit.
At one point I was sitting at the dinner table (watching purses) bored out of my mind and found myself just watching those around me as if they were t.v. I realized I was RIGHT BACK in high school. THIS was exactly how I went through those 3 years. Observing others socially interacting waiting for participation but not pursuing it. My interests lay elsewhere… but I was here so I was just killing time observing… just like in high school.
Oh, Screw This I thought! And as much as I hated the 80’s music the DJ was spinning I got up and danced. The dance floor was pretty much all women & we had fun. I danced for a long as my knees could take it and my tolerance of Prince & Michael Jackson tunes could stand.
Then I scooted off for some water. I chatted a bit with my first kiss mostly about kids & relationships. He admitted he often hids my FB postings. I told him I’m fine if he deleted me.. so many do! But felt complimented that he refused even though he hides most of my comments & postings… well, AFTER he’s read them. lol
By then it was almost 9:30 and I was bored with the reunion. I exchanged number with my new Cougar friend, said goodbye to the few I knew that I could find and bailed. It was fun… not as fun as I imagined. Because all the men there were my age and/or married and/or NOT interesting to me. I look at my young lovers in their early 40’s or 30’s or 20’s and just smile at the 48 year olds at the reunion.
Just like with my music… I can’t walk in the past when the present and future is sooo incredibly delicious!